Lyrics of Nylon Smile - Portishead

I'd like to laugh at what you said
But i just can't find a smile
I wonder why you can't
I struggle with myself
Hoping i might change a little
Hoping that i might be someone i wanna be

Looking out i want to know someone might care
Looking out i want a reason to be there
Cause i don't know what i've done to deserve you
And i don't know what i'll do without you

Looking out i want to know some way might clear
Looking out i want a reason to repair
Cause i don't know what i've done to deserve you
And i don't know what i'll do without you

I can't see nothing good
And nothing is so bad
I never had a chance
To explain exactly what i meant.